It was those days in my adolescents when my young brain was sprinting with adrenaline, popping those levels as high as possible. Success was well dimensional and defeat meant moral responsibility and to look after the shortcomings and to improve them thereafter. It wasn't too long when I started to feel attracted towards my opposite gender divesting my mind to some other affairs rather than supervising myself on target. I felt helpless on that issue to control my senses and at times it was difficult to stay on course. It wasn't me but my bio-chemical stuff working out the hormonal change drenching me through those emotions and then the after effects.
One day it was so obvious that I started looking at a girl of my age just out of compulsion desiring the basic human instincts as they couldn't hold on anymore. I was so lost in it that I ended up scoring a "Dud" in my examinations, though weren't so important but the results were showing the signs of warning and callousness on my part. I couldn't blame her for this as she never looked upon me. It wasn't her fault, but my senses which were out of control and beyond my approach. I discussed it with my friends and all they could say was "Arre Yaar yeh tho hotha hain, Tension Mathh Le" But my tensions grew as days went by !!.
Few days passed by and on the day of my final chess tourney I again saw her sitting in the audience pavilion. I was almost nearing to get kicked out on the board, But, as I saw her, I just got the feeling and wanted to win, you know just to pronounce my presence to her indirectly. I didn't knew where that energy came from and I started to play the game from the defeating end and ended up checkmating my opponent. My opponent was surprised at my mystical play but he just shook his head when he knew that he was going to crash. That day I felt good but still there was an apprehension on my side.
Now the Great-End exams were nearing and I was logging into Facebook unnecessarily just to check her status and whether to see she was ONLINE !! For once I sat calmly and thought, "SILENCE" prevailed as I thought. Yes, I got the answers
I straightaway went near her the next day morning and told her everything I had for her. I frankly spoke to her and then I feared she would complain to teacher about it. But, She was polite and replied to me, "You should have told me this before, You know I was also feeling like to discuss with you". I was confused for a minute Like "What ??" She said "You know, girls also have these kind of situations to deal, you know its the attraction thing working out between us and the feelings are just oozing out, anyways I'm glad you have told me. Lets prepare for exams, leave aside these issues for future, Okay, FRIENDS". I was really happy at that moment and from there on I went on with my duties not fearing about what she thought about me now and then when i saw her, It was so Nice and a thought of Practicality which I learned from her. You Never know things can be sorted out for a good deal. Life gets on with it like "As_Easy_As It Is" !!
One day it was so obvious that I started looking at a girl of my age just out of compulsion desiring the basic human instincts as they couldn't hold on anymore. I was so lost in it that I ended up scoring a "Dud" in my examinations, though weren't so important but the results were showing the signs of warning and callousness on my part. I couldn't blame her for this as she never looked upon me. It wasn't her fault, but my senses which were out of control and beyond my approach. I discussed it with my friends and all they could say was "Arre Yaar yeh tho hotha hain, Tension Mathh Le" But my tensions grew as days went by !!.
Few days passed by and on the day of my final chess tourney I again saw her sitting in the audience pavilion. I was almost nearing to get kicked out on the board, But, as I saw her, I just got the feeling and wanted to win, you know just to pronounce my presence to her indirectly. I didn't knew where that energy came from and I started to play the game from the defeating end and ended up checkmating my opponent. My opponent was surprised at my mystical play but he just shook his head when he knew that he was going to crash. That day I felt good but still there was an apprehension on my side.
Now the Great-End exams were nearing and I was logging into Facebook unnecessarily just to check her status and whether to see she was ONLINE !! For once I sat calmly and thought, "SILENCE" prevailed as I thought. Yes, I got the answers
I straightaway went near her the next day morning and told her everything I had for her. I frankly spoke to her and then I feared she would complain to teacher about it. But, She was polite and replied to me, "You should have told me this before, You know I was also feeling like to discuss with you". I was confused for a minute Like "What ??" She said "You know, girls also have these kind of situations to deal, you know its the attraction thing working out between us and the feelings are just oozing out, anyways I'm glad you have told me. Lets prepare for exams, leave aside these issues for future, Okay, FRIENDS". I was really happy at that moment and from there on I went on with my duties not fearing about what she thought about me now and then when i saw her, It was so Nice and a thought of Practicality which I learned from her. You Never know things can be sorted out for a good deal. Life gets on with it like "As_Easy_As It Is" !!
Nicely written !!
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